It happened!

Opening myself out into the blog was only possible due to anonymity behind it (except of course for the few who I have shared this to). In truth though, I am a very private person. Through the years, I have slowly put up more and more walls around myself with allowing very few to get through. All the heartbreaks, drama, and pain simply piled on more to my walls, my defenses.

Slight tangent... since my last relationship, I have imposed 3 rules for myself when it comes to dating:

1. I do not date anyone two years younger or older than myself.

2. I do not date friends, or friends of family because if shit hits the fan, you can never go back.

3. I do not date Filipinos (I adapted this from one of my best friends... I have enough Filipino drama on my end. Why should I add more to my drama?)

Then enter... Fatima. She changed everything for me. My walls shattered into a million pieces... every instinct reversed. Totally unexpected... every single rule that I had. For the first time in a very long time, I was fully open to someone, defenseless and I wasn't even drunk. The vulnerability was absolutely scary for me. I was surprised at the change in me. All because of her... Fatima.